i feel like sawing a pigeon in half with a stick

welp its friday and i am waiting for the arrival of my sisters and cousins so we can go to that show choir thing today. today was a REALLY bipolar day. i mean, people were either really upset and depressed, or really ecstatic. it was crazy. mostly, people were depressed. just what we need. more drama. i feel really really bad for mary. life has given her so much shit and she cant help but feel sad about it. i mean, shes only human. and then when she acts sad people call her a drama queen behind her back. its like, jesus isnt somebody allowed to act sad if they feel sad? are we always supposed to hide our emotions? and everybody is like, "well she gets worked up about the stupidest things. everybody has bad days at home". and then they pick on her. i dont think anybody knows how much she is hurting. *sigh*
welp yesterday i had a sudden illness and i got the chills and blacked out twice. it was fun. i still felt pretty sick today but by about noon i felt better. everybody has been sick lately. its crazy fo shazy. well enough of my ranting. its nap time for caitlin. bye
~me